Tuesday, February 07, 2006 5:58 PM
yesterday was one tiring n depressing dae tat i had. i was so damn depressed... although i onli kept it to myself. i had tution fer maths yesterdae n it ended at about 9.30pm. after tat,i went to weiyi's hse to collect the rollar blades n juz helped her in her chinese journal. after a few mins,my bro called my hp to find out bout my whereabouts... n i told him tat i would be back home vv soon. but after bout 15 mins,my mum called me again. tis time she asked weiyi to ans the phone. after tolking to weiyi, she also reminded me to be back home. so.... after helping weiyi out, it was time fer me to go back home. weiyi accompanied me down to the bus stop to take my bus.(thz arh...) n so...when i reached home,my mum apologized to me fer not trusting me juz now...n i told her nvm. after tat...she told me tat my bro cnt solve my cousin's maths ques,thus asking me to help to solve. help is help lah...but in the end,i was the onli one doing the ques...while my parents n bro r watching tv.(so UNFAIR! *sob sob*) is also not i dnt wan to do or wt...but i duno how to do. but then leh...my mum still ask me to try. ok loh..try loh try loh. but then i tried n tried till 11.30pm alr...n i was alr vv tired.so i called my aunt to tell her tat i cnt help to solve the prob. n she said,"ming,nvm...vv late liao,u tomoro still got sch,u should go n sleep liao." i felt vv sorry n sad tat i cnt help her. but in the end, i still didn't get to bed...y?? cause my mum still ask me to continue to try to solve. at tis time...my bro was alr snoring in his sleep liao.yet me?i had to wake up early in the morning the next dae, n i was still doing the maths ques.it was reali tiring n unfair to me loh. at first 2dae,i thought tat i could get an early sleep as i didn't get enough the first few daes.but yet...i still had to do the maths prob n get insulted frm my mum.(*teardrops*) then when she finally tired n want to go sleep liao...she also ask me to go to sleep. but in my mind,i was alr vv upset n felt vv insulted...n kept thinking....Y,Y,Y,Y??? i didn't noe wt i did wrong or wteva...but i hav tried all my best.n yet she juz insulted me like tat...!(*crying*) n even when i m alr on my bed...i kept thinking. is it bcause i m stupid n dumb...tats y my mum hated me more? smtimes...i reali feel like committing sucide n ending my life juz like tat...haiz. anywae...theres nth much more tat i cnt put down in my life...
