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Saturday, August 30, 2008 12:55 AM

the night has come. the sun is down.
im just writing this short post under the light of the moon.

just wanna let you know,
charissa.. you are being deeply missed. (:

im now finding for your name in msn.
to talk to ya.
even if its crap, gossip.. whatever it is.

you are being missed by me.

goodnights. sweet dreams everyone.
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Todays teachers' day but i didnt return to NASS.
coz.. i slept at 5am yesterday?
couldn't even wake up at 10.. hais.
woke up at only 12?! omg. :O

i may not went back to NASS, but!
i went to look up one very very important teacher.
plus.. this teacher was ill.
HE IS NONE OTHER THAN MR.DAN DAN! :D

but was only able to accompany him a short while as he has sec4 class going on. :'(
nevermind. good enough to just see him already.
he promised that the next meeting would be on CHILDREN'S DAY!!!
WHOO.. HORRAY TO ALL TUITION PEEPS!!!
can see all of ya again then.
maybe.. another round of pool then? we still owe you, cleve, one game! hahahas. :D
[*cough cough* please take note to: mr.piggy and ms.rachel..]

(*wonder what present would there be also..hmm..* lols. jk jk.)

Friday, August 29, 2008 2:36 PM

how to let go of sorrows?
how to be happy?
how to smile?

these are becoming more and more frequent questions in my head.
i know people who dont know me much would just think that it might just be due to the stress of schoolwork.
but its not. im sure.
im becoming more and more upset with myself.

i feel like im becoming uglier and uglier day after day.
i feel so incompetent.
i feel that everything is so wrong with me.

(i feel like i dont think i know this 'samantha' anymore.)

i asked you yesterday. told you yesterday.
but you just deny it.
saying.. 'no lahs.'
even someone else who know me at a shorter time span knows that something is seriously wrong with me.
but only.. no one knows how to help.
if only someone or something can.

m i suffering from depression?

i miss my cheerful smile..

im still up.
yes. when its like 5.15am in the morning.

i have not gone to bed as i have been working on the 2010 Singapore Youth Olympics Logo Competition.
now.. im finally submitting my final works.
im so dead beat already.
eyes are already like.. half down?
so sleepy.

but yahs.. the submission is still in process.
waiting.. waiting and.. waiting..

although its like hols now.. but certainly not quite for me.
i still hold 3 assignments and 2 competitions (altho im only taking part in 1, as its more than enough to kill me). :'(
other than sch work, i have also found myself jobs.
hais.
its either no job, or too much job offers.
luckily for that. everything is.. kinda settled for now?
i duno. waiting for my aunts reply..

okays.. so what did i do for past days?
[all according to 28th aug]
yes, school work! other than that.. still school work and more school work.
due to the late notice taken of the short deadline. hais. hell-time??!! YES. XD
anyways.. i saw daniel yesterday while having dinner at long-john with gh.
he looks beat. so m i tho..
its like.. always at this kinda time of year, everyone looks half-dead, dont they?
it was a surprise to me that gh would come over to the lib yesterday to accompany me.
but yahs.. i was to vexed and tired for much emotions and expressions. sorry.
still.. im glad. for all the surprises you gave me (:

today.. met up with evelyn to discuss about the logo at the lib.
shes really nice. to actually even came down to marine parade lib for me.
we also went to katong shopping centre to search for the printing shop.
but no avil, as we were not sure which one. (there were TOO many!)
we each also bought a cup of bubble-tea!
the SUPER CRAZY trend going around in DCMD/1A/03 now. aka, my class. :D
mine honey milk tea. hers almond milk tea.
both.. super swwweeeet! hahahas. (:
eve also bought the book she wanted as we shopped around in borders.
happy liaos loh? lols.

then met up with ivan and his terrapins. LOLS.
went with him lib to wait and slack. as weiyi was not home yet.
did some silly drawings, but fun!
hahas.
then went over to yis house to slack more! feel super guilty for not doing much work.
hais.
but shes leaving soon. so.. yahs.. do my part as a friend! im glad :D
watched 'my boyfriend is type B' -SUPER NICE!
also.. 'sex and the city' - nope. not my cup of tea. i quit it halfway. eew.
forgetting to mention, her house is like a supermarket.
lots and lots of snacks. her parents bought more back after that. omg.. theres durians!
but duno why. i have not much appetite. guess its due to stress of work. tsk tsk tsk.
miss yummy food stuffs.. :(
but i did catch 3 seeds of durians!
['not bad not bad~' quote ivan.]

weiyi then also taught us a little basic piano teaching.
me slow. ivan slower?
hahahs. watch us play and u will laugh out loud. LOLS.
rather sing along when others play.
think i learn my guitar first then. (: (: (:
[another note: ivan.. singing? hmm..]
HAHAS. :D

yahs.. then.
tats all!! :D
i know this post would be in a VERY different style than those of mine before.
tats due to the lack of my beauty-important-princess sleep!
so.. please forgive and.. i will try to upload the bintan trip again soon. (:
finally.. nights.

Friday, August 15, 2008 2:49 PM

okays.. i know im now updating lesser and lesser for my blog.
BUT, i wont let it die de. NOOO..! hahas. :D
*zi high..*

anyways.. now i will be uploading some of the pictures which were taken on my birthday!!!
9AUG91 + National Day!
happy birthday to myself!!! :D
turned 17yrs old le.. so sad lahs. coz it sounds so old to me.. sob sobs.
i dun wanna be known so old. :'( (it's okay *pats head*)
so.. must remain young in the heart. okokies.. tats another life goal of mine then. LOLS! :D

anyways.. had much much fun on that day 'asking' people to try my first attempt spaghetti!
and.. i was a little drunk that day coz of drinking a little little of mix vodka with coke. [my threshold for alcohol is really bad :( ] (yep, really really really really bad. haha.)
it was HORRIBLE!!! yucks.. eew.. :S (then still drink so much lor...)
but gh was worried for me when i was drunk. (heart wanna burst liao lor)
so..i already promised gh that i will not drink alcohol unless hes there. and i will keep my promise. (: ( :D )
and also.. i really love all the presents you gave me! thank you dear..*hugs* :D (*hugs*)

the cake was bought by IVAN AND CHARI.. secret recipe! YAY! yummy.. *slurps* :D
also.. jixian wished me many times 'happy birthday' to me. hahas. (this drunk girl called him over o.o)
and also not forgetting.. try who bought me my favourite 7D dried mango! lols. :D :D :D

so.. i shall take this opportunity to
THANK EVERYONE FOR THE PRESENT, WISHINGS AND PRESENCE FOR CELEBRATING MY 17TH BIRTHDAY WITH ME!

okays! sao shuo fei hua.. (later then continue)
PICTURES!!! :D :D :D

group picture! :D

tien and aetii(who managed to sneak out of his house?) hahas. :D

my dear friend, lin! (who got drunk and accompanied her to play swing till 1am?) :D

ivan and weiyi (the clumsy and LATE gal) ! :D

the sweet couple pic of the 2 WXs. lols. :D

the 4R6 guys small group photo! lols. :D

the GIRLS group photo!!! muahahas. (highlight it in bold) :D

me and joy!! :D (shes so cute!)

okays.. people.. so dont say i slow or whatever okays..
at least i posted it within a month and before i go for my 4days school trip to bintan!!!
or else i think your can slowly wait till christmas already. hahahahahas. :D (this girl vv lazy)

if your wan the rest of the pics, just let me know.
i will send it right over to your mailbox.. *whoosh*

now.. its time for me to do my assignment already.
sayonara people!

p.s. i have confidence in the jap MYE this time! me and abi could still enjoy singing our various chinese songs before the test man. YES!
but abi made a little bu-bu this time. hahas. :D

what happened? :
coz teacher ask her 'whats in her bag?', she answered, 'Samantha-des.'
hahahas. it meant that I WAS IN HER BAG!! hahas. teacher was shocked and then everyone started laughing. LOLS.

Thursday, August 07, 2008 10:13 PM

THANK YOU THANK YOU LIN!!!
i love ya lots~ :D

before i reached back home yesterday, my dad told me that he received a package while he was at home having mine name on it. [SAMMY]
i was very curious.. thinking that who could it be?
then he told me that it has an address behind that wrote that it was sent from marsiling!
but i cant rmb having any friend staying at marsiling, which is like the end of singapore(?), quote my father.
plus that person should be someone im very very close friend with.
coz only those who are close to me calls me 'sammy'. hahas. :D

i was really really puzzled!
then when i reached home and opened the package..
i saw a BAG with a note saying 'happy birthday sammy! - yuanlin' !!!
omg.. i was super touched, really super touched.
this surprise from you is my best present this year le.. will certainly rmb it de. (: (: (:

i will use the bag soon lin.. dont worry. (:
and will treasure it much.
THANK YOU AGAIN MY BAO BEI, LIN... *HUGGS*
hope it didnt cost you to spend too much.

[p.s. will post the pic of the bag soon.]
It is such a beauty and so much of a surprise..