Friday, September 29, 2006 12:00 PM
i dnt like my lifestyle right now....
is like everything is juz giving me an irritating look...
wth. i nv do anything lohs...
i know u all are tired.but think of me lahs...im also tired rights? everyone has troubles. not onli fer u. n i juz come back home, n ur are doing tis to me.
ur dun even bother bout how m i. know how im feeling. all is juz about bro bro bro.
okok lahs...hes smarter so he right in everything lahs. while im more stupid, so im wrong in everything i do. m i right to say tat?!
hes smarter n im stupid. so hes words carry more weight than mine rights.
sometimes, i juz feel like im invisible. totally forgotton by ur. not even a part of tis family.
actualli tats also 1 of the reason why i wanna go overseas to study all by myself. coz i wanna give myself more time by myself...since im nothing here. totally a NOTHING person.
so even if u ask my to jump off the building now...i wnt reali mind at all. although i know its a sin to do tat. but coz i juz feel tat my life is juz like a play tat will end one day. so fake n brittle. i hate it. rather end it sooner, so tat i would not get so hurt. selfish bahs? but im reali suffering enough from all these.
maybe im juz too stressed up these few days by the eoy n the studies, which is causing me a headache n to hav many mood swings.
yupps...hope so bahs. no choice but to use tat as an excuse to consoul myself lohs...
