Saturday, October 21, 2006 9:49 PM
these few days i feel so sorry to everyone.especially those friends around me.
i hav been so depressed n so diff frm the past me. who was so cheerful n laughing throughout always. u all were always so worried bout me too. im so sorry to let u all feel tat way. i know i should always be strong to wtevea obstacles i face, but im always weak n so afraid of handling problems.
i hav little confidence in myself always. so afraid tat i might actualli hurt someone.letting them feel so sad n down.tats why im always in such a confusion, but would still let the ppl around me get hurt. i feel so useless sometimes. but would still console myself after awhile n would then be fine after.
im afraid of getting hurt n hurting someone else.everthing i wan, i wouldn't reali go dare to try nor to get it. i leave things go by its way. i can say tat i can be a weakness in me,n also a strength in me too. like this, i wouldn't get hurt even deeper then. n wouldn't hav to consider n think so much.
im a person who doesn't reali like to think so much n deep. i would juz do wtever i like. i dnt like complicated things. i prefer it to be simple n nice...it applies to my life also. thus,whenever i feel stressed up over little things n could not think of any gd solution...i would also get angry of myself.
but of coz...i would pull myself up over again. im vv fergetful.often fergets bout those sad things n memories...
(isn't tat good?). i dnt intend to rmb it either. let things pass. sounding foolish now...lol.
these few days alot of ppl also say tat i look kinda down n cold. i do admit tat im rather cold these days, dnt hav much emotions towards things. juz cold n emotionles. but im alright...dnt worry. my brain seems juz to be thinking quite alot these days. (:
