i wish of many things nowadays...

wish that im blind, so that i would hear the world around me more clearly.
wish that im mute, so that i wont say the wrong things to hurt others at all.
wish that im heartless, so that i wont have to bother about feelings.
wish that im smarter, so that i wont have to work so irritating hard but still do well.
wish that im more selfish, so that others would hate me.
wish that im more of a useful person, so that my parents would live a better life.
wish that im more laidback, so that i wouldn't put much stress on myself.
etc.. etc..

m i very greedy?
yes, i think i m. i know i m.

i live in such a great life now alr, but yet im still not satisfied with it and wishes to gain more. i should be grateful and all. yahs...others would really hate me. coz if i m compared to others, i have a great life alr. what is more to complain, rights?
hate me for all i care then.

"no one is perfect"
and i want to be the imperfect one.
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exams are really alr gone now.
even the results are out alr.

its a disappointment.
i hate myself. im such a loser. such a letdown.
i studied so hard for it. but in the end, the results doesnt reflect back well at all.
whats the point. what is the point. . .

pure geography, i didnt studied for it. scored near to a pass.
a.maths, studied like hell. but still failed. and even more badly than geo?!
there is certainly no fairness huh.. *sarcastic smile*

i seriously dont wish to give it up just like this. its a disgrace. but its seriously driving me nuts and pushing me to one corner.
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relationships

between family:
im spending lesser time with them now. didnt wish things would turn out this way. feel kinda left out sometimes. my bro seems to also start to dislike me. duno why. i miss the family dinner and time-out very often.

between friends:
im a failure. no further comments.

samantha ker.
09 august 1991.
RMIT: Marketing (Bachelor).

the pressence.

went away.

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