Friday, July 27, 2007 9:39 PM
i really still dont have tat courage.
the courage to say everything out. everything tat i feel.
i am very confused, scared and guilty now. my feelings have all been messed up.
besides, the Os are drawing near alr.
i really really dont wish to create anymore unneccessary trouble or sorrows.
but i m really sorry for my actions.
i dont even know why would i do tat. especially to you.
you were such a great friend i have..
thinking back bout the lie i told. how did the thinking came to me. how did i manage to convince myself to pass tat piece of paper filled with lies to you.
i hate myself. i felt guilty.
i know you are not angry and has treated it as a little matter.
but.. to me. i still cant forgive myself.
i promised not to lie anymore. to anyone.. but myself.
but yet i still lied.
i feel tat there is a need to say this, tat...
i sincerely apologise for everyone who i hurt.
sorry.
ohyahs.. and my dad is off for a business trip.
would only be back on sun. :(
only left with the 3 of us le.. lonely..
