Wednesday, September 24, 2008 7:28 PM
feeling so uncomfortable..
it had since yesterday after skipping breakfast.
stomach started aching.
thought that it was nothing.. so ignored it.
as i was already late for work yesterday due to the stupid 1hr jam at nicole highway for the F1.
so much work to do.
felt guilty.. tho it wasnt a
must to finish all..
in the afternoon, then went to have a late lunch at 130pm alone at golden shoe then back to work again.
im so tired tired.. tired.
staring at those papers every single day.
then after work, wanted to take bus home.
unfortunately, the bus stop wasnt there. due to the F1 again. hais.
walked cum ran from fullerton hotel to national library there just to take my bus.
luckily managed to catch the bus 196. or else i would really have just felt like dying already.
at night at around 10plus, stomach started to feel really uncomfortable.
maybe as i keep rushing since morning, didnt really realise the pain of it. (just took sweets to fill it also..)
now.. i felt like vomitting.
but i really dislike the feel of vomitting and i dont wanna vomit.
so i ren and just swallow it back. calm myself down and drank water.
but after that it was really really getting bad.
couldnt resist it any longer.
thought it might be just becoz im too tired. so i went to sleep, at 11plus.
forced myself hard to sleep.
but whenever i close my eyes, i just see papers. paper everywhere..
waiting for me to scan and file them.
so scary.
felt like crying. tears were on the verge already. plus the pain of my stomach was still on.
then i said to myself, 'its just stress, its nothing. sleep and dont bother about it anymore.'
so i forced myself to sleep again..
at around 2am in the morning the next day, today.
i woke up and rushed to the toilet.
vomitted.
everything. everything i ate for the whole day.
i could no longer hold it anymore.. had to throw it all out.
felt really awful.
but luckily no one was awaken by me.
when i thought everything was fine and over.
after washing up after the first time.
there goes the second.
i just lay on the bed for not more than 5mins, i woke up again and went to the toilet.
vomitted again.
2 times in a row!
omg.. i felt like fainting by then. had no longer any energy left to even walk.
but, i still managed to dragged myself back to bed.
still feeling uncomfortable.
tho i was already back on the bed, i was not sleeping well at all.
i felt super uncomfortable in any stance.
luckily im not working today.
after ghs sch, he came down to take me to the doctor.
Dr Kong gave me some medicine to take.
gave me one day mc as well to rest.
unfortunately i dont think that mc would be any use.
cause im still going to work tmr..
after work tmr.. meeting lin and try at suntec.
bringing my camera along to take photos for VDS. :D
try also asked me to help to take some photos for her at her house.
then she suggested that as photography may take a long time, she said i could stayover at her house then..
i wish i could.. but i duno how to bring this topic to my parents.
dont think they would think likewise.
tho its my holidays and chris, my lecturer, said this in our last lesson as an advice.
'this holiday is solely for us to rest, and then get prepared for our next semester.'
but i dont think im in that kinda holiday mood.
neither do i have the time to prepare for my next semester.
so much i wanted to do. (customize my own shoe, finish up all my work, go out and take nice photographs with friends, go shopping and hangout with ex-classmates..etc)
but nope.
everything in me is just so rush. so tiring.
give me one day rest is never sufficient. less said to be even half a day to finish my work.
time management?
yahs.. i know that. everything can be planned carefully and nicely.
but.. that also means im like living like a robot.
time is fully packed for something.
work. home. schoolwork. sleep. work. home. schoolwork..i have no time during sch days, just wan a little more time during my hols to relax.. m i wrong?
