but i cant seem to sleep. or should i say that even if i go to sleep now, i wont sleep well?

12.53am now, you think im not tired?

i seriously dont understand. and dont like!

i dont like to be accused! wrongly accused for nothing..

today could have been a normal nice day for me, but due to many things and different factors.. its screwed.

its not just one thing, its sooooo many things.

why didn't i just go? 

why did i even bother to consider what you would feel?

why did i take this step back?

why did i make that call?

why did i trust someone else in the job?

why did i keep quiet?

why did i? why did i? WHY DID I???

damn it. why m i crying again!

hate it.

samantha why YOU so LOSER!!!!

damn damn damn it!!!

enter

enter

enter..

enter...

enter....

mind blank.

hahas.. maybe i made a wrong choose to listen the song 《放了爱》now?

LOL. choose a song to listen also can choose wrong. whats the problem with you huh? hahas.

.. but its really such a nice song. it reflects so much on what im feeling now.

music is just so beautiful, don't your agree?

how i wish my life could be as beautiful as it. 

hahahas. i know.. fat hope! rights? :D

but now i think at least i did a right choice this time round....

i didnt choose to sleep with my tears silently again. (:

great. isn't it just great huh?

hahahahas. so smart. 

i should have went.. then at least the others wouldn't be disappointed.

i shouldn't have bothered of what you would feel.. coz you still had your dinner happily with others without me intruding.

i shouldn't have taken the step back.. at least i wouldn't so depressed now.

i shouldn't have made that call.. then i wouldn't have need to put my mum in such a difficult spot.

i shouldn't have trust the job to someone else.. then there would not be things undone and not properly arranged.

i shouldn't have kept quiet.. then at least my mum wouldn't think that im the one that was irresponsible.

i dont ...

need ...

wan my tears to roll down .