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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOE, my 2nd uncle!

[tho he is now overseas.. (:]

okays..today is also the day that i get my results.

when i first get my results, i wasn't too happy about it.

i was even quite disappointed in myself and sad that i was on the verge of tears.

thus, i wished someone could give me encouraging words or at least praise me for the improvement. 

but.. nope. the first was the worst.

anyways, i got over with it already. its true anyways..

yupps, i got a 3.362 for this sem. and with a 2.25 for last sem, i got a total cumulative GPA of 3.275.

is that good or bad?

many ppl told me that it is a very satisfactory result, good enough already.

but some ppl would know that it was not my aim at all.

i aimed higher. 

this was not good enough to me.

but i could only blame myself for not having to do better.

i do not want to lose! i don't want to be left behind again!!!

yet.. i was said by someone that i wasn't being practical.

doubting my capability. doubting my hardwork.

making me all guilty and upset.

did i really not do my best, i asked myself??

but... i have always thought i did my best.

and i seriously think so!

i focus all my energy and interest entirely on my work.

abandoning so much more time i could spend with all my loved ones.

even almost losing them, or lost some..

m i not serious enough???!!!!

im not being angry at anyone, but this post would just serve as a self-reflection to myself.

in the first case, this blog was just meant for me to have my own an online diary.

anyways.. whats over, it's over and done with.

i will not be a person who would cry over trivial issues anymore.

and if you really doubt my capability and work, i would really strive and show you how far and further i could get!!

i swear.

this is a promise to everyone and especially to myself.

since i have chosen my 'card', i will make sure i will triumph this 'game'.

to get a 3.7 for my GPA in year 3!

to make a mark for my name, samantha ker.

JIAYOUS!!!

just like what nicole wrote in that mini-letter that she gave me the other time, ' i am a person who knows what i want, and i will make sure i will get it! '

i will remember what i said today.

have an early night ppl. (: