Tuesday, July 07, 2009 8:02 PM
people procrastinate with their work, yet im procrastinating with blogging..
wanted to blog so many times.. on my blogger, but yet i just stared at that blank text box window.
i somehow duno and went lost on what i should write or how to describe my feelings literally..
however so, i promised you before you left that i would not be depressed anymore.
so i wont be.. i do my best to carry with me a happy and joyful heart to face my everyday. (:
but recently really happened a lot of things..
MJ's death news reached me on the second day of my holiday.
this news itself has already impacted me much much lot.
i wanted to break down into tears when my dad told me.. but the astonishment took over me.
i practically stood by the door and stared into space for 5 minutes..
and up till now this moment , i still cant accept the fact that he has already passed on. )':
i would rather accept the silly fact that his death is just a conspiracy.
yes, im lying to myself.
but.. all i want is just to hold on to a little hope in me still. can't i?
MJ is and has always been my idol. (not much people know about this tho)
but.. i loved him since young. his dance moves, his voice.. are just so close to me.
also, we have some common interest.
one of it is that we both love Peter Pan's world of Neverland.
a place where kids doesn't grow old.. and a world without worries, but only happiness and laughter.
its so good that he actually owned a land of his own dreamworld before.. how i wish i could too.
for this, i feel that he should feel blessed and satisfied. (:
although i think he feels quite lonely, as he is always so busy and being only alone.
anyways.. RIP for MJ. seeya in Neverland.. (:
okays.. also, me and 'that' person is still under cold war.
beginning, i was really really angry and hate 'that' person soooo much.
coz 'that' person's words seems to be turned into a dagger that day, which pierced right through me.. stabbing me back at whatever i say.
'that' person also is the reason why our last class gathering was so scattered.
yes, it was not a failure. but coz of 'that' person.. it didn't turn out to be so united.
its all 'that' person fault! yes, i hate you so much for it. and i wanna say it out loud here..
coz tien put in so much work, yet it was almost ruin all by you, you, YOU!
letting me feel so much pain and anger. hate you. arghx..
after that.. the hate became sadness.
coz i felt as if i do not understand him at all anymore..
it seems like he wants to leave us all out and be alone.
now, after sadness subsided.. all that is left is just a blank space.
so what happens now is that we don't contact each another anymore..
i mean.. im quite fine with it lahs.
afterall, things comes back to a square. i was alone and is alone now again lohs..
so far.. now for school is still okays.
just that im quite a little worried for my health.
coz.. im having regular headaches and stomachaches.
for today, it was the worst.
i totally mistake my 12pm class as a 10am class!
thus.. i ended up in class 2hours earlier.
and when i was in class.. i was so worried i got my timetable mixed up and etc.
i think im thinking too much into too many things..
if things carry on this way, im afraid that i might just 'fall' anytime soon le. ):
oh! and if anyone is interested..
im going to the Nicholas Teo autograph session on sat at Heeren @ 12pm, and maybe to IMM on friday @ 6pm.
can join me if your wan.. hahas :D
anyways.. here is the schedule i have of Nicholas Teo upcoming events in Singapore..
[9July`09 - Thurs]
1750~1810: Radio Yes 93.3 Live
1930~2100: Mediacorp TV show recording
2200~2300: Radio 1003 Live
[10July`09 - Fri]
1800~1900: Autograph Session @ IMM
2215~2245: Yes 883 Live
[11July`09 - Sat]
1500: Autograph Session @ HMV
2000~2100: Mediacorp Live Broadcast
YUPPS! thats all.. :D
okays.. goodnights to everyone.
love the beautiful rain.. that continues my smile. (:
