Wednesday, March 30, 2011 1:00 AM
i cant sleep. i cant dream. i cant do anything.
how did sleeping turned out to be a chore to me now.
how did you manage to empty your mind and command sleep to it.
how did i get to what i am today?
flood me. teach me. hear me.
but please dont, lecture me.
one. two. three tens. five hundreds and a seven thousands.. of things running in my mind.
can you catch them, then blow them into bubbles for me to burst.
i live on earth. dream on clouds. but not want to die in tears.
we talked about breakdown yesterday. and it recalled to me today already.
i clearly remembered how it hurt me yesterday. yet for today's i still allowed it to be filled with anxiety.
if you were a fish, i am a fish.
i said 'regret' is a was, but should the word 'hope' be a is.
no.
it cannot.
& it shouldnt.
coz you and i chose it. have it. and lose it.
guys can never understand girls.
girls never try to understand guys.
guys trust their friends and guts.
girls trust their institution and hearings.
what do they understand about their trusts, i wonder.
im glad. always counting my apples and blessings
.. that although i dont have coloured walls, at least i have them one in red and one in green. (:
