A New Year has arrived.

but how is everyone leading on?

good?

bad?

to me, i would say, there is neither but also there is also both.

for that, i thank God (:

and i do not have that courage nor strength.

i have thought for so long, but yet still remains undecided.

i have became so timid and scared..

thinking, "我又能把我的手交给谁呢？"

would you give up on me already? 

appreciate the love that people who cares about me gave,

appreciate the efforts put for all that we went through together,

appreciate the truthfulness of one,

& appreciate the time we spent on smiles and laughter.

tolerate the anger that would harm me,

tolerate the tears that would hurt others to feel sad as well,

tolerate the changes that happened without my consent,

& also tolerate the hate for some.

THANKFUL for ALL & ALL that came to me. (:

i have also been reading a friend's (alan) blog lately.

read it over and over again, and yet my feelings remained unchanged for his christmas eve post.

on one hand, worried for him.

though he might not be a close friend of mine, but he is a really nice person.

and if he is facing any trouble, though i can't be of much help, i hope to at least understand and listen to him.

on the other hand, i feel him.

his words, his thoughts and that song..

he wrote it out so well, too well that it hit me.

it were as if he has said all that i wanted to say for so long, but i lacked of his courage and written expression skills.

goodness alan,

what is true love?

you wonder, i wonder, we all wonder.. and always awaits for it to arrive.

but one question would also ring in all our minds after, "how long?"

i ponder over these 2 words so hard.. all the time
& to this phrase of "once attained, one would take for granted and slack off"..

如果 ”我爱你” 只是一时的 “砰然” ，我又能相信这刻的 “砰然” 多久？

我们又能把这一刻的 “砰然” 变成 “永恒” 吗？



是我把王子与公主的完美爱情故事想像得太天真和太容易了，太笨太傻的是我。
但是，如果老天爷能给我一个愿望实现的机会... ...
我想我还是会很想完成，我这一个又笨又傻的愿望！

是的，我愿意用我的一生来等待。永远的等待... ..."我的爱"
因为，等待也是一另种美丽的爱 (: